curiousity kills the cat

Not saying i'm a pervert okay. But i'm really curious to find out what's in a damn playboy magazine, apart from the porn. Or is it only just porn?
I wonder whether they'll have a health section, fashion section or some other shit.
Hehe.

I don't understand why the guys i know must treat me like one of them, as though i'm a guy in a woman's body. It's been like that since JC! Yes Weili, you and your brothers are guilty of that.

So guys, who wants this extremely huge 32mb file? I'm charging you $10.

teehee

I'm starting to feel my raging hormones setting in

Standard of living, GST has increased, and conveneniently with the ministers' pay too.
When will my pay ever increase?

This is getting more and more ridiculous.

"Wages of ministers, civil servants to go up as Govt seeks to keep its talent"

Someone please fucking pass me a puke bag.

What talent? They are merely creme de la creme with straight As, several scholarships. But that does not equate to talent. It just means you have a flawless academic track record. What do they know about seeing a pool of urine in the lift when you're coming back from work. Or how about the times when no one cleared that bag of durian shells at the void deck for days!
Because each time they come pay those visits (which really is rare), they get the banglas to clean up the place till it is spick and span. I'm not the only one who thinks that way too. If you have watched Just Follow Law, you would know what i'm talking about.

Govt talk so much about giving public assistance to the needy, yes..by what, increasing their handouts by a meagre sum of $30? Pittance. That amounts to an additional of $1 a day. Oh, so what, they can buy one cup of 60cents 'kopi-o' and one cheapo curry puff? Or maybe one extra can of Coke a day. Even when i know some of the really genuine MPs tried to fight for an additional $400 a day, their suggestion was turned down.
Not say they are kiam siap with handouts, but, pls lor, if you are uneducated, you know nuts about anything, you obviously don't know where to get help right?
This is quite sad. Sometimes i wish i could do something for those elderly who collect aluminium cans. The best i could do is buy them a meal, order more drinks so they can collect more cans.
They should just slip a $600 hongbao under the door of those needy families each month.

Oh, and here's one more reason

"Ministers are not in guaranteed long-term jobs — they face the General Elections every five years."

Does that mean they should get an pay rise? Don't forget, they have pension okay! It's damn wayang lah. They know they will ultimately be the predominant political party in sg, and now they're just seizing any forms of opportunities to up their pay. How can eg Workers Party be the predominant party in sg, walk-overs are included whenever they draw those boundaries. Play cheat lor.

Sigh. It's like going for a buffet, knowing that you may not be able have food after the 5th year, then you stuff yourself silly with food.

Let see what else has increased ever since the they the election

a) Transport
b) Cab fare (nabei! $2 surcharge!)
c) Utilities
d) Their pay
e) GST
f) suicide jumps at MRT station

And i'm expecting more jumps when the casino opens


Here's another joke

"Looking ahead, Mr Lee challenged the Public Service to benchmark itself to top global companies, such as Google.

"Google receives 1,300 resumes a day. The Public Service must strive to have that same cachet. The whole tone of the organisation must exude confidence, energy and purpose," he said."

Google Vs Public Service?

ERMMMM....

That's quite a bad example.
The reason i heard that why many wann join public service is mainly because of the pay.
As for google, i know ppl there love their jobs. google has got kickass welfare. The ppl who work there are workaholics. They're even allowed to bring their dogs to the office, and they even have beds!

Here's something else

"Australian National University academics are outraged at a decision by university management to bestow an honorary Doctorate of Laws on former prime minister of Singapore Lee Kuan Yew in Canberra next Wednesday.

But the decision to honour Mr Lee has incensed university staff, students and human rights advocates who accuse him of running an authoritarian regime in Singapore over the past four decades in which he has quashed any political opposition."

I should stop reading Todayonline.

PMS

It is a wonder that i haven't been feeling irritable or emo or moody this entire month. That's because my stupid period has been late for 8 days; considering the fact that mine is usually a 32 day cycle. That makes it 40 days.

Boo.

So last week, i went for my pre-employment check up. I had to take an x-ray, and before that i was made to sign this form to say that i'm not pregnant, and i had to write down my LMP (last menstruation period).

Radiographer: You've signed that form, and you're not pregnant right
Me: yeah
Radiographer: Oh, your period is late, are you sure you're not pregnant?
Me: yeah quite sure
Radiographer: hmm..let me get you some protection just in case *brings the special protection belt from a room, across the clinic and into the xray room for me*

Great. She couldn't be any discreet.

I must start taking EPO (evening primrose oil) again. Apparently, if i were to take that religiously on a daily basis, my period is damn zhun. 32 days means 32 days.

The wait is agonizing.

You - Switchfoot

Love Is Blind

Love Is Blind - Tiffany

People say that you're no good for me
People say it constantly
I hear it said so much
I repeat it in my sleep

Maybe I am just a fool for you
Maybe you're no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When I´m alone with you

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can´t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

All the world is crazy anyway
What's the matter what they say
If I'm the one that's wrong
Then let in be my mistake

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can´t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

You wouldn't be with me tonight
If I didn't feel i was right
What will it matter anyhow
A hundred years from now

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can´t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

the emo bug struck weili

I'm sure my good friend weili has been struck by the emo bug.
Judging from his most recent entry, we all know what his biggest regret is. HAH.

"whenever i hear this song,
i think of you.
it was the end of everything we shared."

Very unlikely of you leh. So mushy.

I think we shouldn't have any regrets in life. We gotta learn to move on, and not look back. Life is like a tunnel, you just keep going forward and forward, till you see the light at the end of one. And if you don't see one, then you just keep going on and on..till you die.

I've learnt not to look back on things and regret. What's the use of regretting? Instead of fretting and whining, why not channel your energy on how to make your life better?

I'm sorry to hear about your regrets. You should've known better; from the moment you started throwing away all the sandwiches she made for you for recess *snigger*, that she was indeed a very very good catch.

For myself, i've never regretted being dumped by the ex. It could've been worst if i were to cling on to that pathetic relationship, where my self esteem was marred, my dignity and pride diminishing. Phew. I'm better off alone.

Alas, while you could cherish and think about the good times you've had with the ex, it is still better to move on than to live in the past, because there's a time machine simply doesn't exist in this world.

Time only moves foward.

So dude, look on the bright side, for there's always somewhere out there far far away. And on the contrary, more often than not, the one whom you married is the one you don't love the most, so why bother?

Food for thought:
It is better to be left on the shelf for the view out there is better

(ripped it off somewhere)

managing your ka-ching

One more credit card added to my wallet.
It's amazing how i'm able to manage my finances well enough. Thanks to post it notes like "pay $244 by 21/3"

Some ppl think when you have many credit cards, you're just out to flaunt them. What they don't know is, the more credit cards the better (though i would limit myself to only 5), thats because you get various discounts from so many restaurants, retail shops blah blah. Besides, there's always annual fee waiver each time you apply them.

Hmm..but one impt point is, not to be a slave to your credit cards. The banks are legalised loan shark, they charge you a rocket high interest rate of 24%. Talk about day light robbery

The punchline? Cut your cloth according to your coat. Never spend more than what you can afford, otherwise, you'll be in deep shit.

Ooh, tmr i'm going down to Shenton Way. I think i wanna grab myself a sandwich at this quaint sandwich shop i saw the other day.

responsibilities and being tired

i hate responsibilities.

i hate having to drag myself out for work when i'm so damn tired, or when i heard the pitter patter of raindrops outside my window.

you don't have much of a choice when you've started work. That's when responsibilties come in.
It's a different thing altogether when you're a student. If you're tired, you skip the lecture. Your ultimate goal is to get a decent grade, nothing else really matters.

When you've started work, not only do you have to fufil responsibilties, you have to impress your boss. Urghhhh. It's not even about meeting expectations, it's about performing ABOVE expectations.

I'm so tired. Physically and mentally. In 1.5 weeks time, i'm getting a new job. I'm so tired. I don't even have some free time to rest before i embark on my new career. My last day at the lab is on a Sat, and what do you know, the following Monday, i'll be working at somewhere new. And the probation shit starts all over again (ie: cannot take leave for the first few months blah blah blah).

I really am so tired, i don't even feel like doing anything these days. Precisely why i feel like a social recluse this entire month, and i'm expecting myself to be in this situation for the next few months.

I miss doing the things i like. Like waking up at 11am, watching Jamie Oliver on tv, sipping my coffee while i read the papers, cook my own lunch, or go have lunch at Subway.
And i definitely miss going on a holiday.

So to all the god damn students, stop complaining you assholes!

screw the mozzies

my room has been invaded by mosquitoes recently. I reckon it must be the fucking weather. Hot and humid and anything worse you could ever think of.

couple of days back, i had 2 mosquito bites on my toe and 1 on my sole. Those are the most knn place you could ever get bitten. You're itchy as hell, and yet you can't really scratch much, because of the tough cornified layer of the skin. So the only saving grace is Mopiko, which isn't even that effective either

this morning, i had the shittiest sleep of the year (to date). I woke up at 6.15am. I heard thunders, so i thought shiok, can sleep longer, and i felt very happy. At 6.18am, i was itching like mad, at my thighs and my calves and my arms. 4 mosquitoe bites! Why can't they just let me off! It's only dawn! Oh gawd. I was so pissed off, i went to shower, because i couldnt sleep anymore. It was so so itchy.

And just 2 minutes ago, i was so bent on killing this mosquito that i saw in my room. My efforts were in vain. Now my two hands are painful from the hardcore smacking.

Mosquitos don't deserve to survive. They should be banished from the world!

Today i had crystal jade for dinner. To be honest, crystal jade is over-rated. I'd rather pay abit more to eat at Tung Lok or Lei's Garden. The dishes at crystal jade came in less than 10 mins. Talk about mass production. (btw, this is not what you call efficiency).

And, tmr, i shall settle for Steamboat at Suntec

The #1 Forbidden Question

Des says:
must i send u back?
saving grace says:
aiyah don't need lahhhhhh
saving grace says:
bud, thats the worst question you can ever ask a girl
saving grace says:
minus 1000 brownie points from you
Des says:
i know...but u told me i can be frank
Des says:
hahaha
saving grace says:
HAHAHA
saving grace says:
okokkk
saving grace says:
i hate it when guys ask this qn
saving grace says:
damn irritating
saving grace says:
u know why
saving grace says:
when u ask that qn, you already gotten the answer
saving grace says:
dumbo
Des says:
there, girls are contradicting
saving grace says:
HAHA
saving grace says:
yes i know. we're so hard to fathom
saving grace says:
but anyway, you dont have to send me back
saving grace says:
because i know you're a lazy bum

what an idiot he is.

So the funny thing about this forbidden question is, the answer will always be 'NO'
Who in the right mind would be so thick skinned to say "Yes, pls send me home" or "yes you must send me home"
This is a trick question for girls. When guys ask you this question, they want you to go home on your own.
The next time he asks again, I will reply the unconventional way. I will say YES. HAHA.
Men!

Feast your eyes on these random pictures

Hob's Black Eye Boy and Brown Boy. So cute!

Nick's collection of watches. Go rob him

Diana's Farewell
I swear i'm looking more and more like my mom.
SIGH!

Kev Chu's damn damn cute Maltese

Very nice night shot

One more nice shot taken by the same person, this time with a handphone

Mix Tape - Butch Walker

all that you can't leave behind

The above title as you know, is quoted from one of U2s popular songs, 'Walk On'.

I really have this problem of leaving things behind, and them moving on to the my next phase in life. Both relationships and career.

I don't know why, but i was so emotional when i tendered my resignation to my boss. I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. The more i talk, the more i couldn't control my tear ducts. It was a myraid of feelings. I felt guilty and selfish, for leaving at the wrong time; since another of my co-worker is leaving 3 days after me. I felt horrible that the rest of them can't get their alternate saturdays off once i leave, or the fact that there are only 3 of them left to manage the lab.

On the other hand, i'm still trying to accept the fact that ppl come and go, as what my boss told me. They do that all the time for personal reasons. And for me, my reason was a financial one. I needed a better paying job. Maybe this being my first real job, i felt so emotional and heartless. I'm sad too, having to leave them, although it was only 10 months. Despite my stint being a short one, seeing each other everyday really forged a strong friendship. If only i didn't have to leave them, but i had to.

I know i'll never find a working environment as good as the hospital. I had a terrrific boss, and my co-workers were great. I never had to deal with stress or anything, and the best part is, i get to knock off on the dot. This will be a transition from comfort zone to harsh environment. When i start on my new job, i should be prepared to protect myself from the dog eat dog society, and not trust anyone too easily. Now, i think i'm really prepared for the geuninely REAL working world.

I'm pretty sure my boss won't be too happy with my decision. I could tell from the way she was being abit negative about my job offer. Sigh. What to do, every man for himself right? If only they paid me higher in the hospital, then maybe i might consider staying.

Anyway, my new job is pretty promising in terms of money and prospects. But i have to put in a lot of hardwork, which i think i'm all geared up for. Long working hours, stress etc etc. Anything for a better life.

Changes

I think people change together with their status quo.

Some examples:

- when they're in a relationship
- when they get promoted
- when they've become richer
- when they've reached cross roads in life. (ie a transition from a full time student to a full time working adult)
- when they've made new friends
- when they have a new life abroad

I don't think any one person can remain like forever and ever and ever and ever and ever.

I want a new life!! Any of the above will do.

Rain rain, go away

The weather has been pretty gloomy lately, albeit nice and chilly.
I really shouldn't complain, because 90% of the time, i'm perpetually complaining about the damn humidity in singapore.

I think the chilly weather is pretty nice too. It is perfect for a cuppa and a book or movie. It is nice for snuggling in bed under the duvet. But i hate carrying a brolly wherever i go. I have this idiosyncracy (which my dad knows of as well) of keeping my brolly in one of those Subway Sandwiches plastic bags. Yes, the long one which you put your foot long sandwich inside. I collect them so that i can keep my brolly. Strange huh. I'm such a queer person.

Anyway, today i went to the bank again for my competency test. It was mentally draining. 60 questions in 3o minutes to test your verbal and logic skills and of course, another 40 math questions. It's like SAT; only without negative marking. And you'll soon know the outcome in 7 days time. hurhur.

People have been asking me very frequently about my love life. Unfortunately, this time round, i've decided not to take the proactive approach, because i don't see a need to commit now and i'm happy with everything i have. Commitments can be a chore, really. I wonder how i made it through last time. Eeks. Even though i took/take fancy in some guys, i refuse to do anything about it. If it happens it happens. And it's not like getting attached is my #1 priority right now. It's amazing how our ideals change as we grow older. When you're experiencing the post-student life, you tend to leave all that teenage ideals behind, and you move on. You think about alot of things, especially money (or is it just me). You also think about your career; which i do very often. And most importantly, you think about your future. All these thoughts occupy my mind most of the time, anything other than these are quite trivial. Hah.

I hope i don't become a spinster though.

Sure i want to get married and have kids, but maybe the time isn't even right now. At least i've given marriage some thoughts.

Someone once asked me what song would i want to play on my wedding, and i told him i would like Edwin McCain's I Couldn't Ask For More.

See, i think long term! Actually, i think i know of a guy who is marriage material.
But.....


i think we'll talk about it another time.



p/s: fucking beetle wouldn't leave my room. Argh!
pps: I hate beetles!
ppps: Did you guys know when i was 5, i accidentally ate a beetle (which happened to be in a cereal box) thinking it was a raisin! Nabei.

Yay!

I know i'm crazy today. 3 entires in a day??

But that's because, i was checking my mail just now, and i got a notice from HR. The interivew i went for today, they've shortlisted me to go for another round on friday

i must do my best!!!!!!!!

Independence at 23

Sometimes, i think it is a good thing when parents leave their own children to struggle on their own. That way, they learn things the hard way. They learn how to keep their heads above the water.

For me, it didn't come easy either. I wish i had the kind parents of who would give me allowance even when i was in university, or even let me bum ard and sleep all day throughtout my entire summer break

I envied ppl who could stay at home for 3 fucking months playing PS2 during their summer break, or even go clubbing every damn night.

I envied those stupid NS guys who get allowance from their parents despite saying that their pay is like "sai". $400 is not sai okay! Or those ppl who get to go overseas, spend, eat, enjoy, have fun, tour from state to state, fly back to singapore 2-3times a year, without having to worry a single thing about money.


Most of all, i wish my parents were richer enough to see me through university. (And i'm not even talking about going abroad, which i think i deserve to; only that they didn't have the money)

But all of that didn't happen.

I could sense reluctance each time i asked for pocket money. And ideally, as a child, you don't actually have to ask for money. Your parents would give you on a monthly basis, just to make sure you have enough to eat blah blah. Not for me.

I had to work for my own money, while studying at the same time. I couldn't afford a laptop, i couldn't afford to stay in hall, and i definitely couldn't afford to spend as much as what i am spending now. I had to give tuition, for $150, just enough to cover my expenses for the entire month. And if i'm disciplined enough, i even managed to save abit.
$150 a month? And you thought i was kidding. I kid you not. I'm glad i've managed to instill some sorta financial discipline in myself; that being the envy of many.

That being said, what i'm pretty mad is how my brothers are taking so much money from my parents. In secondary school, all i had was $4 (inclusive of recess and lunch), and my youngest brother is currently taking $6. To be honest, in secondary school, a bowl of noodles won't even cost you more than $2. I didn't see why he had to take so much. And the other brother was taking $10 a day. Seriously, WTF.

Now that i've started working, and given some thoughts about my career, I've decided i don't want to be a wage slave no more. I want to earn the money that commiserates with my hardwork. I want to be proud of myself. I don't want to earn a sum of money just enough to get by with life. I want it to be a luxurious life.

I can foresee myself slogging like mad, and at the end of the day, i can feel that i've achieved something, and am proud of myself.
At this point of time, my career comes first. Everything else is secondary.
You defintely would think likewise if you were in my shoes.

p/s: I still want my Mazda when i reach 25.

pps: and the bottomline is, i blooody need that bank job!

ppss (totally irrelevant): but sometimes i wish i didn't take ppl like bud for granted