安静

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

One of Jay Chou's nicest songs that is anything more than apt to describe everything about me now.

Love Is Blind

Love Is Blind - Tiffany

People say that you're no good for me
People say it constantly
I hear it said so much
I repeat it in my sleep

Maybe I am just a fool for you
Maybe you're no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When I´m alone with you

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can´t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

All the world is crazy anyway
What's the matter what they say
If I'm the one that's wrong
Then let in be my mistake

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can´t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

You wouldn't be with me tonight
If I didn't feel i was right
What will it matter anyhow
A hundred years from now

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can´t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

the emo bug struck weili

I'm sure my good friend weili has been struck by the emo bug.
Judging from his most recent entry, we all know what his biggest regret is. HAH.

"whenever i hear this song,
i think of you.
it was the end of everything we shared."

Very unlikely of you leh. So mushy.

I think we shouldn't have any regrets in life. We gotta learn to move on, and not look back. Life is like a tunnel, you just keep going forward and forward, till you see the light at the end of one. And if you don't see one, then you just keep going on and on..till you die.

I've learnt not to look back on things and regret. What's the use of regretting? Instead of fretting and whining, why not channel your energy on how to make your life better?

I'm sorry to hear about your regrets. You should've known better; from the moment you started throwing away all the sandwiches she made for you for recess *snigger*, that she was indeed a very very good catch.

For myself, i've never regretted being dumped by the ex. It could've been worst if i were to cling on to that pathetic relationship, where my self esteem was marred, my dignity and pride diminishing. Phew. I'm better off alone.

Alas, while you could cherish and think about the good times you've had with the ex, it is still better to move on than to live in the past, because there's a time machine simply doesn't exist in this world.

Time only moves foward.

So dude, look on the bright side, for there's always somewhere out there far far away. And on the contrary, more often than not, the one whom you married is the one you don't love the most, so why bother?

Food for thought:
It is better to be left on the shelf for the view out there is better

(ripped it off somewhere)

Penny and Sense

If my pennystocks were to rise from $0.15 to $0.40 (according to insider, whom he pretty much gave his assurance), that means, i would've made a profit of 166.666667%.

That would be great!

p/s: i'm glad that chivlary is not dead, at least not in somewhere where i live, for i've just spoken to one chivalrous guy. Do we not think that men are chivalrous because they tend to be less expressive? Or is it the way they're being brought up? Their mom didn't teach them how to pull chair for girls or open car doors for them?

I must be more observant

Running the marathon

I'm amazed by the fact that when it comes to commitments and relationship, my brother is one hell of a marathon runner.

I wonder how he has the stamina to stay in rships for so long, for someone his age. (ie: minimum of 2yrs) Impressive huh.
I wonder why he broke up with the previous gf too.
Maybe he's one hell of a love sick puppy; or maybe his girlfriends are all terrific catches.
Gees.

As for me, i'm all too ashamed. I can't even like a guy, and pay attention to him for one full month.
Makes me wonder, is it really me, or the guys?
Short attention span probably? Or are my expectations too high?

Everyone thinks i'm fussy. Of course i have the right to be fussy. If i'm gonna invest time, money and emotions into a rship, it had better turn out good. It's just like making an investment. You have to your homework first, read financial reports then decide whether or not to invest. We're talking about long term investments of course; not like buying fruits from the supermarket.
Because i don't like making wrong choices.

Been there, done that.

The bad guy always wins

"Sometimes u have to make a big mistake, to figure out how to make things right
Mistakes are painful, but they are the only way to find out who you really are."

Season 3 of Grey's Anatomy is pretty good, with Meredith dating both Finn and McDreamy, since she couldn't decide on who to pick, and because both guys are absolutely great.
Until the day after her appendectomy, she decided to drop the bombshell on goodie two shoe (G2S), Finn.

Meredith:...

Finn: So it's Derek

Meredith: I'm sorry

Finn:Can i ask why?

Meredith: You are a great guy, you're a wonderful guy, and you may even be the better guy, But..

Finn: He's the one

Meredith: I wish he wasn't.

Finn: He's gonna hurt you again, and when he does, I won't be here.

***

The following day, Meredith told McDreamy that she broke up with Finn, and all Mcjackass said was.."Okay".
You could see that uber jaded look on Meredith's face. Gah! Meredith was once hurt by Derek, yet she chose him again! Sigh.

Right up till now, i still don't understand why girls would choose the guy that would have the propensity to hurt them, make them cry or even break their hearts. And i happened to be one of the suckers. I'm just oblivious to the kind of guys where my happiness is top on their priority, only until i've met a jackass that that made me an emotional wreck (pls refer to the quote above)

At least it was a lesson well-learnt. I kinda like the quote.

But sometimes, when you've realised your mistakes, everything is all too late. G2S might not even be there for you. He probably has someone else in mind. The most you can get out of him, is that soft spot which he still has for you (for old times sake) which you take it as a cue that maybe he's still into you.

I know we all can't take G2S for granted, expecting him to be waiting for your for eternity. That is utterly selfish.

The only thing you can probably do now is..

Hope for the best.