Weird things

big piece of crap!
now i have to retype whatever i typed earlier on
cuz blogger.com is oh so fucking unreliable.

URGHHHH.

okay, im pissed at the fact, how my lecturer emailed us yesterday, telling us that the format for this coming test, which is on friday, will be changed from MCQ true/false with negative markingn to 6short essay questions. Reason being, the department does not have those optical answer sheet with true false options. What fucking nonsense is this!

Studying for an essay-based test is different from mcq test lahhh. knn! oh, can't flame professors here. hehe.

Anyway, in this entry, i just wanna say that, ppl do weird things whilst studying. At least for me. I think nut once told me that everytime during exams, she would pluck her eyebrow half way whilst studying. ahaah. hmm..i think i do that too. but not excessively till i have no brows. i would do other nonsense such as cutting my split ends, buffer my nails, cut my toe nails, squeeze my pimples and all these other stupid nonsense things. I dont know why i have to do all these while mugging. Theres gotta be some theory. I know.

So just now, what i did was to inspect my comb. Realised that it was getting all too dirty. SICK. I dont know what sorta dirt accumulated there. Probably dead cells? And zillions of bacteria. ahaha. i took a metal paper fastener and started scrapping those crap out. I wish i could show all of you those horrible looking dirt and bacteria lurking between the teeth of the comb. But, i figured it would be to gross. I shoudl just buy metal combs next time, then can soak in hot water, use aseptic techniques to sterlise it. heh.

Don't exactly know the best way of cleaning combs. i tried using toothbrush, doesnt work that well really. Maybe its time i invent a comb cleaner.

ps: im blogging on my baby. its an acer travelmate. and i love it.

hopefully, when i click the publish button, this entry will appear, if not, fuck it!

On my blog

A friend of mine commented that my blog entries are ge tting weirder by the day.
Question: is it my entries or is it me? Haha

Hmm..i don't know why he said it was weird. I think it was becuz of those love/rship i talked about. bah

yeah. i must admit the entry before this was longggg. but you see, only ppl who can relate to things like that, will read on. If not, they won't even give a shit. I guess he didn't. Hahah.

er..im only emo when i feel like i am. I try not being emo all the time. Then again, isnt it natural for girls to be emo?

okay. is this entry short enough?
i realised long entries really bore me to death. Haha. especially when i don't know what the hell the person is talking about

ps: i love my new lappy.
pps: i love driving, but im bad at it

there are alot of things i would like to talk about, but after my mid term tests.
immunology and human diseases both on the same day.
Am i dead or what?

wah, this entry is incoherent. wtf am i doing!

You're not alone in this

"One of life's painful experiences...

Girl A: yea watched it. its really sad.. i knw.. makin me feel worse.

Me: Oh dear! oopsie.sorry. jz thot tht d storyline was unique , sweet n sad.


Girl A: i would do the same thing for ** too.

Me: Really? yeah, im sure we would too ..fer d boys.

Girl A: yea i would. just like how if one day he gets into a bad accident, i would care for him for life. But *touch wood* i wish for him to be safe.

Me: true.. but u see.. even if u guys aren't together anymore. u would still care fer him.altho in a diff way..bt still.. nonetheless.. u wld care fer him like he's dear to yer heart. tht wont change.N im sure he too.. will still care fer u..

Girl A: I love him thru n thru

Me: jz that right nw, he'll hafta draw d line cuz u guys arent together anymore.. It's a heart vs head thing nw. In this case, u'd jz hafta slowly rationalise it no matter how hard it is. i mean im sure whilst he was with u.. he was happee too..and fer him ta have made that decision.. im sure it wld ve broken his heart too.

Girl A: den why end it?

Me: He's a fantastic guy and yer a great girl too. bt i guess he's thinkin far ahead..its abt life together and knowin best wat his career entails. N havin u in his life wld no doubt be great fer him..

Girl A: i can take it.. i can. I can change.cuz at the end ofthe day, i'll still be happy.

Me: But thing is.. he mite not want ya ta suffer..knowin alrd tht becuz fer a fact,fer him.. u hadta change or make sacrfices fer him.maybe he doesnt want ya ta be doin that all life long. yes u will be, n seein u happy wld make him happee too. But fer em guys, they mite think differently.They've gt another perspective. They feel bad fer "abandoning" us. No matter wat, u jz hafta be strong.

Girl A: But if it leads to the big picture, then why not? Even if it's not me, it'll be some1 else makin the sacrifices too.. cos thats wat his job is all about. Then take things one step at a time. one phase by one phase.

Me: i guess he's tryina be d head of d decision whilst yer heart is hurting..True, bt prolly cuz they re still young. They never knw wat could happen. I knw. bt becuz things r happenin at their side n i guess prolly they wun wanna have it at our expense.Like throwin d uncertainty against us as well.

Girl A: i dun mind.. i really dont. It's all abt gettin used to it. Isn't it?

Me: jz like how we're willin ta make d sacrifices ..they prolly arent willing ta let us do so. cuz i mean if we're in their position,n they re makin all d sacrifices fer us cuz thrz no other choice..Im sure we wldnt want em ta do tht too..cuz we'd think:tht'd be selfish of us.

Girl A: But a r/s is all abt give and take. u give some, u take some.

Me: precisely, he mite think tht yer tryin hard ta give him everythin u could, whilst on his side, he cant promise u anythin..so tht in itself will make him feel bad or worse as it is alrd.

Girl A: I don't need him to promise anything..all i need is for him to love me.. n let me love him back. Uncertainties and all, i can take it all. Come what may, i can handle it..

Me: I knw.. im sure he knows it too..but u knw, like u said.. its all abt gettin used to it. i mean they wldnt want us ta make d sacrifices n get used to it.. knowin tht we could be happier n nt havin ta get used to anythin bt jz be ourselves.

Girl A; i know u said i'll get used to life without him, but i know i wont. cos i love him. u knw i loved him even before we got together..i waited for him unknowingly, rejecting others.N when he broke up with **, i felt d happiness.and i realised i liked him all the while, and thats when i decided to take the chance to go after him. He was the best thing that happened to me.

Me: yeah, i get wat ya mean. But sometimes, love doesnt mean you'll end up together. Harsh reality, but pretty true. Likewise, he may love u with all his heart, bt jz that sometimes love doesnt simply mean bein with each other or havin d feelings thr. It could be that they love u ta hurt enuf seein u havin not ta not be yerslf when yer with him cuz of the sacrifices u'd hafta make.

Girl A: but i dont wanna be set free..

Me: see.. we each have our own perspective on things.And his mite be different frm yours.

Girl A: He can't even give me a good answer. just kept sayin he has no love fer me anymore..tht it's too late fer me to change.

Me: well, i dunno wats goin on in his mind. bt i knw fer a fact tht fer sure.. im sure a part of him does hurt too. I mean guys will hafta put on a strong front. Once d decision is made, they gotta be firm n stick with it.

Girl A: noo.. he said he wont regret. He said he feels choked each time he says i luv u or i miss u.

Me: yep, my point exactly.he wont regret meanin he has alrd thot it thru, decided n he'll stick with it thru n thru. Choked, i dunno y exactly. Bt my view is tht choked cuz he knws that with that, there r promises he'll hafta make to u, which he himself is uncertain if he's able ta fulfill them or not. N if he doesn't, he knws tht u'll get upset again n he wldnt want tht.

Girl A: i can take it.. love is all about accepting one's flaws isnt it?

Me: yes it is. i knw its painful.. bt thing is when yer d one tryin ta accept all d flaws..its lop-sided and im sure he has done it too.jz tht prolly as fer nw, he's decided tht this should end n tht it shld end whilst d good lasted.

Girl A: i can accept his flaws..the limitations caused by his job.N i can change, so he wont feel stifled.

Me: i am harsh bt i jz want u ta understand that sometimes things like this.. u jz hafta try n accept.its yer heart thts talkin,hopin tht things btwn u both might change n u two might get back together if u see him or wat n change his mind right? i mean u said before tht even if d both of u r frens, y wouldnt he wanna come n see u in dec?cuz u ARE his fren, bt no longer his gf. Even if u see him, u cant hug him, he cant tell u tht he loves un all.so wats d point in him flyin thr n seein u, only knowin fer a fact tht will further jack yep hopes higher.

Girl A: yea, im still hopin and hopin.caught between hoping and letting go.. more hope than letting go. That's me. I always hope. Love hopes, love endures and never fails. That's wat d bible says. it has to have some truth in it.

Me: yup, i knw..its harder fer girls esp ta let go fer sure,n yess, i knw wat u mean.but love hopes, love endures,, love never fails. thts a perfect reality.but nothing is ever much perfect in this reality, sad ta say. But there are definitely perfect moments, perfect periods. Bt nw tht d flame's gne dwn fer u.. its time ta sit back n jz remember d happy moments tht u both shared. Give each other some time. Both him n yerslf. so tht it'd be easier fer u guys to b frens again.

Girl A: is it possible to reignite d flame?

Me: yes, it is.. possible, jz tht fer nw.. u gotta let it cool.who knows? it may reignite again.. or it may not. u dunno n neither does he.so it'll be pointless fer him ta tell u nw thr mite b a possibility, cuz if he does, u'll be waitin..hoping.. n thinkin..thts nt wat he wants. Its more of a "let nature take its course" n see wat happens kinda thing..more of " come what may"..

Girl A: wat can i do to move on then?

.....

*names are kept anonymous to protect the person(s) involved.

Sweetheart, if yer reading this,

it is definitely painful, no one can take his place in yer heart and u would want things ta go back to how it is..However, he has made it clear to you, and tho' things between u both have ended, just remember.. u still have a friend in him..there are precious moments and times that'll stick with u both.. that will belong to only u and him. Keep that with u.. those beautiful memories. take that with you,and with that, believe that u can brave it and find love again.

Yes, it's tough and it will take a while.Give yerself time. It will hurt in the meantime.Be strong dear girl..Am here fer you if you need me. Just remember that u will get through this. Slowly then, gain strength and courage and independence away from him. If u feel yourself slipping and thinking of possibilities or how things could be different if you're still with him, then u should give some space and not be in too close a contact with him. U can be good friends, but both of you need time to be psychologically ready to be just friends and nothing more. From there, then u both can see next whats best fer each other. It's that time and space that you need to give yourself.

YES, give yerslf time...time to grief, time to remember, time to be strong, time to live yer life without him. Yes, it's one of life's painful experiences. It's over dear..

A *hug* fer you sweetheart.

Sorry that i'm not much of a help. Just wish i could do more ta take some of yer pain away..Let it out, don't hold it in... Let eveything out and you'll feel better.

I mean.. I'm not askin you to just stop loving him. You don't stop loving him, but you can only get used to living without him there.. it's a start at least.

Stay strong and pray... Pray fer the pain ta slowly erase.. Pray for strength and courage.. Be strong.. God will catch you when you fall. HAVE FAITH that you'll be alright in time to come, that both him and you will be able to look back toogether and smile at that voyage you both once had,with no strings attached... HAVE FAITH that you will be strong to face the journey ahead of you, alone. It is in the journey that you will become strong. "

And so i quote this off a friend's blog. You know who you are.

I just want to let you know that, you're not the only one who had to through this shitty mid-life crisis. I was in it too. Somehow, after reading this entry of yours, my emotions started to pour in. Its never really easy getting over it, but no one said its impossible am i right? I'm still learning to grapple with all these post-break up stuff, emotions, school, moving on with life days. I haven't completely moved on, but i know i've moved on a little. A baby step is still a step no? And to whoever that wrote that last paragraph of advice, i gotta give you credits for that. It is an immaculate piece of advice. And i will heed that advice of yours too. I don't know what else to say, because you've already said it all.

*sniff*
I never like goodbyes.

Random Rubbish Churning

Sometimes, i feel like i have the memory of a gold fish (read: only 3 secs). i need to constantly remind myself that i have 2 fucking tests on the same fucking bloody day! Two fucking core modules that are enough to drive me MAD MAD MAD. Oh, so why am i here? *remind myself i have two tests* Immunology. Molecular Basis of Human Diseases.

Recently, after glossing through my Human Diseases notes on Cancer, I've decided to take some anti-oxidants. Haha. My mom bought alot from GNC, and she thinks its good if i were to take them daily. And each pill costs $1.50. WTF! Good thing about anti-oxidants is that it eliminates free radicals produced in your body, which effectively lowers your risk of getting cancer. You could get anti-oxidants from Vit E or tomatoes, broccoli yada yada. I've also learnt that (and i quote from my lecture notes) "it is not easy to get cancer". Because, for cancer to strike, it must accumulate 4-7 mutations in our body. And usually, our body has an internal DNA repair system and tumour supressors etc. My question is, if its not easy to get cancer, why the hell is cancer on the rise dammit! Evolution? Is that why we acquire mutations in our body so easily? I dont bloody know lah!

Was reading Manda's blog and i was inspired by one of her entries. Heh So, i'm gonna come up with a list like hers

To be my knight in the shining armour, you must

treat me like a million dollars
send me home to my doorstep if its late at night so i dont have to run up the stairs myself.
know what i eat, and what i can't eat. (read: order my prawn mee without prawns!).
like my friends, and send them home too.
surprise me in school, or at my block.
cook/bake for me. And make sure it does not taste like poison.
bring me a blanket when i'm cold, even when you're on crutches.
call to see if i've arrived home safely if you don't happen to send me home.
pick flowers for me! (same as manda). but pls don't pick nonsense like angsana or lallang.
tell me that i look nice in whatever clothes/hairstyle/shoes.
give me opinions when i go shopping with you. don't just say "okay lah".
like my family and my dog.
respect your parents as well as mine, and respect me too.
write me a card, even if you do not plan to give me a birthday present.
give me motivation to study whenever i feel lazy.
not yell at me when i'm late for 30mins or less.
not treat me as though i'm your friend whenever we hang out in a big group.
not make me cry. And if i were to cry, make sure its tears of joy.
be musically inclined. serenade to me a decent piece of music. damien rice is good. if not bach will do.
be taller than me.
have at least 80% well aligned teeth. (haha. im a sucker for teeth can?).
be able to swim and like the sun or any other outdoor sports.
make sure you're bloody unattached. Cuz i hate being the third party. I would never hurt a girl.

That is all, i don't think my expectations are too high eh?
So how come i'm still fucking single?
GRRRRRRRRRRRR

Some nonsense with Hobs

Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
u must teahc me to sweems
Qualified Driver says:
hahahahh
Qualified Driver says:
sure
Qualified Driver says:
but
Qualified Driver says:
u must wear the checkered swimming costume
Qualified Driver says:
just in case i get bored teaching u
Qualified Driver says:
i can play chess
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
HAHAAHAHAHHHHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAH


Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
ok bermula!
Qualified Driver says:
apa bermula?
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
uhhh saya tidak tahu bagaimana uhhh
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
bermula is start lah
Qualified Driver says:
oh begitu!
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
ahaah
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
eh rambut awak besar
Qualified Driver says:
oei!
Qualified Driver says:
er....
Qualified Driver says:
anda gemok sekali
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
haha saya kurus lah dan cantik
Qualified Driver says:
karena anda makan banyak
Qualified Driver says:
hahah
Qualified Driver says:
saya juga kurus dan cantik leh!
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
ngentot
Qualified Driver says:
rambutnya cantik dan lurus
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
away bodoh lah
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
eh awak pergi ke mana hari ini?
Qualified Driver says:
hari ini, saya pergi ke Orchard Road jalan jalan
Qualified Driver says:
anda pergi ke mana hari ini?
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
saya pergi ke geylang untuk seks
Qualified Driver says:
anda makan apa ?
Qualified Driver says:
hahahhahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
Qualified Driver says:
seks?
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
saya makan ayam (cock)
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
sedap rasanya
Qualified Driver says:
HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAH
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
tetapi, geylang sangat kotor, saya mau hotel bagus seperti ritz
Qualified Driver says:
apa ayam asin?
Qualified Driver says:
wahhh!
Qualified Driver says:
anda kaya yah!
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
ayam asin? saya tak tahu lah, saya seorang serani!
Qualified Driver says:
apa serani?
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
ah? oh yea saya mesti membayar lelaki lelaki
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
serani ialah seseorang yang cantik, kurus, tinggi dan tidak melayu
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
ahha
Qualified Driver says:
hahahahhahah
Qualified Driver says:
wtf
Qualified Driver says:
i dont understand already!
Both of us never tiring, desperately wanting. says:
apa wtf?

There's something which i

totally

ABHOR

Going on a pretty short hiatus.

There are some things which disgust me,

and i get peeved just thinking about it

Weekend Shopping

Almost forgot about my buys. 2 tops, 1 bottom. You may think the purple top is ugly,
but i say its flattering ON ME! hahaha.
Green top only $9.60, purple top $15, and the bottoms (i dont know what you call them, they're shorter than capris) $20.
Not bad eh.
Hahah. i wont say where i bought it from. If your eyes are sharp enough, you can see the price tag and figure it out yourself. Definitely not THIS FASHION okay. They don't have price tags.
Clue: its a departmental store which ppl like us would barely step in.

Random Pictures

Wah, simi lai eh?


Its actually a mama shop in India. WAHAHAH.
It looks like a mini Mustafa Shopping Centre. They have everything there!


My latest squeeze. Hehe. No lah. This fella is voted the world's most gorgeous guy.
Look at the nicely chiselled face, that eyes and THAT TEETH! wooo!


When i'm rich, i'll build my good friend, Amanda Hobday this toilet bowl.
For she has a big butt. One butt cheek for one toiletbowl. Hobs, am i a nice friend?

Take Me Home To The Paradise City

Its rather unusual that i managed to wake up at 8.45am today. Strange.
Was supposed to get down to serious business (read: start studying proper! Immunology! Human Diseases)
Oh gawd. I've got tonnes of catching up to do. And why am i here? I think its becuz i really hate Immunology. I HATEEEE IT. hahah. Didn't help how we had to do another stinking dissection AGAIN! oh GROSS.

Drove daddy's car last night for the first time ever. I drove to the Airport. Heh. So fun. Gotta get used to his car. Apparently his car doesnt have much power steering, and moreover its my first time driving an auto car. Hah. I hope i like auto cars. The stupidest thing happened. You know when you drive an auto car, your left leg is like 'free'. Haha. so i actually used the left leg to step on the brakes. heheh. And my dad yelled. ROARRR. And it was also my first time driving on the freeway last night. So scary. Speeding cars, and being the anal and scardy cat me, i drove at 60km/hr. On the right lane. HAHA. And my dad yelled again, and said i shouldnt be taking the right lane. Oh btw, it was also my bloody first time driving on the right lane. HEHEHE. And parking was okay, cuz i parked head in.

Im gonna drive to my uncle's house again later at bedok reservoir. My dad thinks i need a tonne of practices. So i'll be driving quite frequently. Didn't help when my mom said she didnt feel safe in the car. Heh. 4 attempts do say alot eh. Snigger.

So anyway, lately, i think ive been gaining weight like no body's business. Its scary. Ive been drinking so much coffee too. Am i addicted? Hah. Just like how i'm addicted to Hobday's Big nose. Can't take my eyes off it. .
Lets see, i think i have a split personality at times. Why you may ask. er...actually im not very sure myself. Okay let me tel you why. On some days, when i think back about my past (specifically the fucking rship), i feel grossed out and disgusted. (DONT ASK WHY). And on other days, i yearn to go back to the past again. So am i fucked up or am i FUCKED UP? I dont know.

Ive got so much studying to do. God save me!
Here's a little something for all you guys, (provided you're not an Atheist). God gives you what you need and not what you want. Something i've experienced. Take my licence as an example. 4 blinking attempts. Initially, i wanted to drive REALLY bad, that i cried in my dad's car when i failed my test for the first time. HAHA Stupid me i know. Then subsequently, i was rather used to failing. I didnt give a damn. But i told myself, maybe its all part of God's plan. Like, say if i were to get my licence earlier, something bad could've happened right? ( i dont need to spell what this bad thing is.) CHOY! er...yeah. Am i making sense? Or am i typing rubbish?

On a happier note, i might get myself an ipod nano. I knew this day would come! Thats why i never wanted to conform to the early craze of that normal fat ipod or even the ipod mini. HURHUR. Now whoever has the normal ipod without the colour, you guys suck. Its like carrying one of those old fashion crab hammer handphone. Hehe.

I can't wait to pack my bags and leave for Sydney!
:))))))))))))))))))

After 4 attempts, she finally made it.

Heh!


The very much coveted ticket to freedom!

The Return of The Stalker

Ah, what a day.

On my way to school at Simei MRT, i met that stupid 2002 stalker. What luck. I was going up the escalator, then i saw someone leaning over the parapet wall, and gave that sorta fake smell. What the hell. I walked away. Thank god my train came! No he's not ugly or anything. He's actually average, and he's definitely way better than Nim's Tacky. HEHE (private joke)

This was what happened in 2002.
I would leave house at 6.45am, looking stoned, walking extremely slowly because i was damn tired. And i was definitely oblivious to the external surroundings. You know, those tormenting JC days which no one would ever wanna go through again. Yeah, so then, this stupid fella clad in his disgusting green uniform started walking beside me as i walked past the coffeeshop. I must say the army camouflage worked well. I didn't even notice him! Great, so he's been waiting for me at the bloody coffeeshop.

Stalker: Hi, can i get to know you?
Me: (in my heart..for what?). Huh? -weird loook-
Stalker: I'm Dave (or issit Tay, or issit David)
Me: Oh okay.
Stalker: Are you going to school? (yeah fucking DUH. Can you pls use some brains. Im wearing my school uniform. Do i look like i just came back from clubbing?)
Me: Yeah (BIG DUH IN MY HEAD)
Stalker: So how are you coping in school?
Me: okay i guess (in my head: is he a dumbfuck or what, who the hell asks this sorta questions!)
-stalker boareded the same train as me, and we bought alighted at tampines-.
I really didnt bother to make small talks or anything like that.
Just when i was walking out of Tamp train station
Stalker: I'm sorry if i scared you
Me: -fake smile- (in my head: you don't scare me, you disgust me you fucking desperate army baffoon!)

After that, he kept bloody waiting at the stupid MRT station entrance for me. I had to wake up EXTRA early to avoid that prick. Urgh.

okay fast forward to Feb 2003 (after A levels)
I started working at Starbucks.
On this very unfortunate night, while i was on shift, he popped by Starbucks with his friend.
And they both ordered a root bear and Earl Grey Tea. What a joke.
And he kept appearing again and again! And wont leave till the store is about to close. Irritated, i stopped working the night shift. Then that bugger kept asking one of my co-workers, also my very good friend where i was. HUHH. And who the hell told him my name? Must be some prick in Starbucks. Eh dont anyhow give out names can! Ah whatever.
Glad i didnt bump into him for a really long time. Except for today.

And right now, i'm fucking irritated.
Mr Irritant aka Mr I-can't-stop-bugging-you is getting on my nerves. He should be in camp 24/7. And never get a chance to come out of civilization, lest he'll bother me. I mean, he's nice etc, but gets kinda clingy at times. Haha. And i won't divulge who this irritant is. It'll spelll trouble.

He always msgs me on msn this
Irritatint: hey!
then keep quiet for a fucking long time.
Me: yah what?
Irritant: Dao!
Me: -closes the window-

If you msg me, then you better have something to say. This has happened for the 10154986453th time.
Stop irritating me. And i don't see why i should entertain you. Go get yourself a girlfriend pls!

Yes, i'm nasty to the people i don't exactly like. And i would never hesitate to show my nastiness.
Then again, its only a handful of people whom i don't like. Other then that, i'm nice, and most ppl like me. I can't think of an enemy, or a friend who loaths me. haha.

What a Saturday Night!

Parkway in the evening. Quite a bit of changes.
Came home. Soccer. Studied abit.

Time check:12.10am.
Geylang for Beef Kuey Teow + Dao huey + yu tiao = HEAVEN!

Time check:1.15am
Scooted down to Mustafa Centre, dont know for what also.
And i realised that they actually have a lot of stuff!
I mean ALOT. Its like a Mustafa Empire or sort. Hm..whoever said that it was a smelly mega shopping mall?
No smell leh.
Bought 2 seashells sorta bangles (the kind you would fine at roxy) at $1.50 each. Is that a steal or what huh?

Headed home, becuz i was reallly tired.

NATAS

Wah lau eh. Damn fucking full. My stomach hasnt felt that bloated for a really long time. my gawd! Such a bad feeling.

I just had a bowl of instant noodles. The spicy mushroom one, the one that comes in a red packet. Fucking good! I always feel damn satisifed eating that. And im bringing that to sydney!

And today, i followed my parents down to the NATAS fair. The annual travel exhibition at Suntec Convention Hall. And i still rem 3 years ago, i met Nim & Nut at the fair. They were boooking tix for their Melbourne trip, while I on the hand was booking for my Cairns/Brisbane Free & Easy trip. (which turned out so magnificent, i visited those two places again the following year)

So packed, though it was a friday. So many ppl giving out flyers. I told my dad if we were to collect the flyers and shove them into the huge plastic bag they gave, and sell it to karang guni, sure to get quite a sum of money. Heh. Of course i didn't. I was too tired. Anyway, my parents have booked tickets to China. They'll be visiting Shanghai, HangZhou and i don't know what else. Its a pity i won't be going. They'll be leaving in Oct, which means 8 days to myself. HEH. My mom said they might fly to Sydney in Dec too, then can celebrate Xmas. Haha. Okay sure. whatever.

SPeaking of which, i've yet to accept the Summer school programme. I have to do it by next Thurs. I was just thinking..6 weeks. can i bring myself to do the damn laundry? Bah, or leave everything unwashed till i return. Haha. so gross. Because, judging from the state of my room, its equivalent to a warzone/Katrina wiped out zone. I have folded clothes on my table. Too lazy to put them in the cupboard. I have a pile of folded clothes in the wardrobe, not yet separated. Ive got bags strewn all over. Newspaper, books notes on the floor. heh. No wonder hobs said my room is like a sty. But hers isn't any better. Hur.

Damn fullllllllllllllll. This week i havent gone jogging, because i was too busy, and im getting the usual headaches and shit. The daily drilling (becuz of lift upgrading) is killing me. Giving me splitting headaches and shit. It has been like that for the past 2 fucking weeks. I shouldve moved into hall this sem.

Ah, the thought of ppl whom i know (but didn't tell them about my blog) reading my blog agitates me. I find it quite hard to be candid sometimes. No seriously. I can't really be that candid anymore.
For one, they might judge me. For another, they may spread shit about me.
Nuff said.

Decisions Decisions

You know i never like making decisions. Urgh! And i need help. I'm deciding between these two. An ibook G4, according to my friend nick, who is a mac geek, this G4 now has bluetooth and whats no. I can't rem what he said. Price: $1.6. The only reason why i'm hesistating is because its a Macintosh! As usual, afraid of changes, can't adapt to changes yada yada. The anal me is not very willing to be a mac convert. Though the mac geek promised me that i'll never look back. 12 inch, 40gb, 512mb. Hm....

Or an Acer Travel Mate. A little boring, but definitely the safest bet. I still like the ibook design. Well, 60gb, 15 inch, 256mb, blue tooth,
Both are of the same weight.
So how?
And it sucks how i have to finance this laptop by myself. SUCKSSSSS

Pics from Diana's Party

Yes, the ACJC ppl. They're all from AC. except moi. I'm from Super Raffles.
Evan: Yes thats the big wheel (translate in chinese pls)
L-R (top row) Cheryl, Tim, Althea, Diana, Regina
Bottom Row: Lorraina, Nic, Me, Emilia (groping Pam's breast), Pam, Gina, Maggie, Sharon

Emilia trying to molest girls again. Disgusting girl.


And us.

The best party food ever

Just got back from the palace. Haha. Indeed a palace.

Diana's party was superb. 100 odd guests. NO more parking space, had to park at neighbour's garage.
At least 15 round tables.
8 chefs.
Cooking on the spot. Fabulous. And they even had a conveyour belt for the sushi! what the hell! All the food cooked when you want. Sushi made upon request.Tepanyaki, tempura, satay, udon, sushi. And the best thing was the dessert. Crepe. Made on the spot with Bud's Premium ice cream and a huge pot of chocolate as fudge, or fondue, with strawberries and some other fruits. Insane.


Stuffed myself silly. Feeling so so guilty after the dessert. Can't be helped what. Played a game of pingpong at her attic after that. Haha. so cool!

This beats Jack's Place catering hands down. Oh, did i mention it was Sakae Sushi? (yeah i know anne hates it)

And its 5km run tmr!
Post pics tmr. im lazy

Save the day!

Today was some Police Family Day 2005 crap at Wild wild wet. My mom had tickets so we all went.
You know frankly, wildwildwet has gotta be the most fucked up water theme park. I went there, only with one motive. To tan. Period. I didn't take any of the rides (to fat amanda, not becuz i will get stuck in slides, but becuz they are boring. At least better than you, you're afraid of ALL THE RIDES. HAHA. and you always end up as the bag-watcher cum camera/wallet holder). So 2 hrs under the sun, reading Straits Times. Not bad. Plus free KFC meal. Ahh. And its irritating when ppl keep questioning me, "why you don't eat the chicken skin, thats the best part ever." Well, since its the best part, then you can have it. Firstly, i don't eat becuz its FATTENING. And secondly, i feel very sick eating the skin of chicken. Don't ask me why.

okay, i digressed. Yeah so, 2 hrs later, the sky was covered with black clouds. Boo. But i already got my tan, so its okay. Then, while i was watching the damn bags, it started raining all of a suddenly. Quick and alert i was, i immediately tried to save everything from the rain. (i've learnt my lesson, must act fast and save everything from the rain. If not ppl will get pissed, cuz i didn't save their bermudas.) Private joke. Wah..i saved everything except the newspapers. HAHAH. And the chicken bones. Not that i wanted them anyway.

I acted so fast, much faster than the Katrina Rescuers. hehe. And its really funny to see how some ppl's KFC lunch being soaked in rainwater. HAHAH. Gross. Chicken+rainwater. Can make broth. Then my stupid brother told me
Bro: wah..we were in the river lying on the float, then it rained, and we had to look for shelter
Me: you look for shelter for what, you're already wet! Stupid.
Bro: oh cuz there was a bridge, so we thought stay under the bridge for a while
Me: HUH.

Me (in my heart): bloody hell! no wonder you guys took so long to come back! And i had to be the one saving all your belongings! And sacrificed my towel to cover all the non-waterproofed bag. And it didnt help that one tent had a fucking hole, and the water was dripping. Irritating.

Okay, i should go nap now, becuz i have a friend's party to attend at her house. Apparently, everyone calls her house a palace. Think 4 semi-D all connected together. Its a huge family! And we're having jap food. So cool.

Tata!
p/s: i like my tan. Except that stupid bruised look-alike tan mark on my chest. Becuz of my VS swimsuit. Nim, you've seen it before. Don't you dare laugh.

Hello & Goodbye

This is a backdated post. Supposed to have posted this two days back, but i forgot, and when i wanted to post, my internet connection screwed up on me.

Today on my way to school at Buona Vista busstop, i met Miss Hwee. Now known as Mrs Chang. She was my form teacher in KC back then when i was in Sec 3 and 4. I was walking towards the bus-stop, then i saw this very familiar face. Instinctively, i thought to myself "isn't that miss hwee"?. To my very big surprise, she saw me, smiled and me, and she went "Hey Grace right". OMG! It has been what 5 years since i've graduated from KC and she still remembers my name! How sweet. No wait, maybe its because i was one of the loudest and noisiest girls in class, one of the most problematic girls who can't adhere to the schoo attire rules that made her remember me. That really made my day. We talked abit, asking about each other blah blah. And she's still teaching at KC, but had training at the MOE building today. Not bad huh!

Back then, i must say she was the nicest form teacher ever. I know she hates picking on us about school pinafore, belts, shoes, socks etc, but sometimes, its out of responsibilty that she has to pick on us. Her second chance is never really second. "Why aren't you wearing the KC socks? Tmr must wear!". "Button your collar pls", "where is the bow on your shoes?", "why is your belt so loose", "why are your nails so long", and all time favourite, "pls take off your second earring". Haha. Very patient A & E math teacher. Never hesitated too stay back to help us out. Dedicated. Ahh. A pity i forgot to wish her Happy Teacher's Day, which is on Thursday.
Sec 3/6 4/6 was so so fun nonetheless! I still want back my KC days!!!


And one thing that truely made me happy this year (apart from my 21st birthday, but realised at the end of it that everything was all a stupid facade and shit) was my acceptance to UNSW Summer Program. Hmm..i must say i applied for this 2 days after the break up. Rash decision at that time? But i'm definitely not regretting on this now.

Dear Students,

Congratulations! You have been selected to participate in the NUS-UNSW Summer Program from 5 Dec 2005 - 13 Jan 2006.

Before you inform us of your decision, we would like to bring to your attention the following:

1) Projected cost

We have made a projection of the cost to be around S$6,000. The breakdown of the cost is attached for your information.

2) Accommodation (http://www.unilodge.com.au/locations/sydney_UNSW/index.asp)

a) It is compulsory that all the 32 students stay together.

b) The allocation of the number of students in each apartment (ranging from 3 - 5 bedrooms) will be confirmed later.

c) An initial payment of AUD1,250 (S$1612.50) is required should you decide to accept our offer. Please issue a cheque in SGD made payable to "National University of Singapore" and submit to us at (Blk S16 level 2 Dean's Office) by 26th September 2005, 12nn. Please write down your name and matric number behind the cheque. Please do not send post-dated cheque. We will send the payment in a lump sum on your behalf to UNSW.

d) You will be advised on when to pay the balance.

e) The initial payment will be refunded less any fees chargeable should withdrawal be made after 26th September 2005.

3) Modules to read

Students are to read all the 3 modules: a) Australian Wildlife Biology; b) Mathematics in Arts and Architecture* and c) Measuring Up the Universe.

* Subject to change.

4) Booking of Air tickets

a) The faculty will make a group reservation of 32. You will be travelling on Quantas Air.

b) All students are to travel on the same flight departing Singapore on 2nd December 2005 night. You will be notified of the flight details soon. Should there be changes to the departure date, you will be notified too.

b) At this point, the ticket price is around S$980. This amount may fluctuate depending on any increment in the fuel/tax/miscelleous charges.

c) A 50% deposit is required if you are accepting our offer. You will be advised on the actual amount soon. Similarly, please issue a cheque in SGD made payable to "National University of Singapore" and submit to us at (Blk S16 level 2 Dean's Office) by 26th September 2005, 12nn. Please write down your name and matric number behind the cheque. Please do not send post-dated cheque.

d) You will be advised on when to pay the balance.

e) The deposit made will be refunded less any fees chargeable should withdrawal be made after 26th September 2005.

We seek your cooperation to go through the above pointers carefully and discuss with your parents, if need be, before you inform us of your decision by 9th September 2005, 12nn in writing.

If you do not revert to us on your decision by the stipulated deadline, we shall assume that you are no longer interested and we will proceed to offer your place to students on the waiting list from 9th September 2005 1pm onwards.

At least i have something to look forward to now.

stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
memories good or bad, made u what u are now
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
you think?
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
so are they good or are they bad?
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
sigh
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
i dont know
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
if u decide to let yr memories turn u into a sour perosn
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
thn its bad
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
but if u decide to accept that shit happens,
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
thn its good
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
thats wat i think at least..
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
hm...so, your break up experiences, what do they mean to you?
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
learn from them
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
learn how to have a smoother breakup
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
hahaha
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
coz breakups are inevitable if the relationship isnt compatible
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
for sure, breakups also taught me how to evaluate my partner more critcally
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
hmm..smoother break up? wat nonsense. hahah
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
i hate break ups
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
i dont mean to sound pessimistic
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
but everytime i think about getting attached, i will tell myself that, one day, this will end...
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
ohh
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
yes
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
initially i thot like that
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
but then after
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
so to not let yourself from being miserable etc, might as well not go into one
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
u will realise
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
u dont have to fear the end
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
why not?
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
because the best moments happen while u are *in* the relationship
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
its not nice getting hurt
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
and that, in itself, is worth the end
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
in other words,
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
dont think so hard - enjoy the ride!

(while it lasts)

Really, who likes goodbyes anyway? I don't for sure.

stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
every relationship is a new experience what
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
but even now
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
i feel abit jaded
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
i think
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
all that dating flirting and time and money wasted, what for? just to have someone to hang on yr arm and fuck ocassionally?
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
yeah lor
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
its like..meaningless?
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
sometimes it really is more trouble thn it is worth
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
so whats the bottom line? rships arent worth it?
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
hahah
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
hmm..but then again
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
each rship is like trial and error
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
hahaha
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
relationships are worth it
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
you never know whats gonna happen
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
only if u feel the chemistry
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
and u think the guy's worth it
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
but more often than not, it turns out shitty
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
i dont know how to judge if a person's worht it
the black balloon: Sydney UNSW! HERE I COME!!!!!!!! YAY! says:
yeah. but if the guy doesnt think otherwise!
stop, tell me where you're going; maybe the one you love isn't there says:
but u'll hv yr own criteria

And that was my convo with Da Turnip. Never knew he could be so deep. To me, he's corny, witty, irritating at times and SHALLOW. Haha. Hi nicky are you reading this? or Teenage Lolita? Haha.