Every man for himself

The fact that i'm always caught in a dilemma goes to show that i can be a fucking indecisive person.

i don't know why, but the timing just couldn't get any better.

A choice between myself and others

Myself- For a better looking cert/prospect in the future
Others- I have to be answerable to them, after all their help

It's not so much of making a decision this time. It's more like a gamble. When you make decisions, you are given the scenarios. But this time, i'm given an upredictable situation. One wrong move, and its over. That's if i choose to be the responsible person which i am (majority of the time)

Or, i could wait another 5 days, wait for the outcome, and then, i'm make a decision. Not a gamble. But what if, i backed out, for a better looking cert. Because i am selfish, and (although i appreciate the other's help), i disappoint the others for the recommendation.


Or maybe i shouldn't even think about Honours.
Fuck.

I think i'm going to church tomorrow.

I think i've learnt a valuable lesson- and that is, man can be selfish sometimes, that we neglect the feelings of others. This is afterall, survival of the fittest, which stems from Darwin's Theory of Evolution.
On the other hand...well....since i've mentioned suvival of the fittest, maybe its always good to be independent