I'm my only enemy

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of my died
When I let you go
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of my died
When I let you go


I'm feeling like crap now. Sinking deeply into an emotional turmoil after all that has happened yesterday. They were surreal. I woke up this morning realising that it isn't one of those dreams i had last time. It was real. And as my heart aches so badly, i thought, it really was my fault. I led to my own downfall. If only i could wake up one morning, and find everything perfect like it was before. There are so many things i still miss. I couldn't even look straight into his eyes, for i know i'll cry. I couldn't even say a proper goodbye because i hate goodbyes, especially when saying it to him, and not anyone else. I just thought that we broke up at the wrong time when i wasn't even prepared. I was caught off-guard. Now trying to get over it is remotely possible.. Oh gawd! How i hate myself. I'm to blame for all my miseries! Why did i ever let this happen? Fuck my life. Fuck myself!