An illusion i know called Love

I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have sombody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And I don't really matter
To anyone, anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall.
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed?
There beside you where I used to lay.
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Boo. And i still can't get this song out of my head. It has been lingering in there since forever, and its probably because i can relate entirely to this song. Love, what a scary thing it is. To me, it seems only like an illusion, and i was probably foolish enough to be deluded by it. With everything equal (forgot what you call that in Econs), in love, theres bound to be one person getting hurt, and the other just getting away feeling guilty, maybe for a couple of days. Its impossible for two to get hurt i think, though it always takes two to tango. Even if it does happen, the number of emotional wound would never be equal for two. Love could never end on a happy note, thats because its not even suppose to end. The sparks can extinguish, but the passion should never. There shouldn't even be any equity in love. One party tends to be more accomodating and compromising, but things won't stay like that forever. Sometimes, the table can turn. And you will know it when it happens.

Love just doesnt seem real to me anymore, and its hard to regain my faith in love, because i can't seem to trust anyone out there anymore..

Though love is only a mere illusion, its hard getting by life without love. So, what exactly is love? To me, its so hard to define what love is. What i see about love is a fuzzy image, nothing too well-defined, hence my conclusion, its only an illusion. Apart from the love of my friends & parents. Those love need no explaination nor introduction. But all i know is that, the sparks in a relationship does not equate to love. And thats emphatic.

And i wish i could just walk out of that door non-chalantly and aloof, not feeling any form of sadness nor pain. If there's just one thing i would want God to take away from me, that would be my emotions..